Awhile back I was approached by a friend of mine, Crystal Garman, dope hair and makeup stylist. She told me if there was ever an opening or interest to photograph that I should hit her up. Right then and there I immediately expressed my interest and we set up a time bright and early at 7am to shoot before I went to work.
If you know anything about my work you will know that there’s not a whole lot of woman in the bunch. It’s something I’ve come to notice and there’s a whole blanket of complications I’m having with that realization. I photograph a lot of people in the context of success or promotion or entertainment.
I’ve come to realize that there’s this amazing layer of awesomeness that comes when a woman wants photos to celebrate the fact that she’s not a man.
In my head it’s like, “Yo, what’s your success, what’s your promotion?”
Well, I’m not you. I’m not a man. I’m a woman. I want photos because I am a woman.
Woah. There’s this whole niche in photography souly dedicated in photographing women and the idea is that it’s just that, celebrating women because they are not men. And that is fucking dope to me.
And I would love to dive deeper with that but I’m personally getting hung up in the fact that, well, I am a man, I’m not a woman. And a man photographing a woman to celebrate womanhood gets real complicated in my head. The male gaze, the grayness of being single, the fact that we are we are not the same, both celebrating womanhood. I know nothing about being a woman. The struggles, the feels, and I’m so afraid of translating that celebration the wrong way.
Long story short, photographing woman for the sake of photographing woman, makes me anxious as fuck because I am a man.
And I think Crystal kind of picked up on that.
So she did what any dope person would do and she made me some tea.
Please note: I fucking love tea.
And it was probably the best thing ever. We were drinking tea and making images. Strangely enough it was kind of a 50/50 hangout photoshoot session which really put the both of us more at ease when it came shooting time. I just felt so much more relaxed and organic.
It was also pretty cold so the hot tea was mainly to keep Crystal’s hands warm while she stood awkwardly close to a cold ass window.
Please note: Crystal also fucking loves tea.
After hanging out by the window for awhile we took a break to refresh our tea. As we were talking she sat down on her couch. It’s hard for me to turn off the photographer in my eye and as she was just hanging out on the couch I told her I knew our next series of shots.
The lighting coming in was so dope. That early 7:30am cloudy window light.
God I love shooting in the morning. I need to do that shit more often.
It was a really good session. At the end of the shoot it really did just feel like I came over for tea and donuts while talking to someone hanging out on their couch. Nothing forced, everything just flowed.
Anyway, here’s to dope women being dope.
Here’s to women not being men.
Here’s to me trying to figure out how to appreciate women, as a man, like a woman… or something.
Uhh… HERE’S TO DOPE ASS LIGHT
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